Over the Hump
December 15th, 2010

Fitting that it’s Wednesday, because at the moment I am fixated on getting over the hump.  By the calendar I cleared the halfway point of 2010 on July 1.  But, even with little more than two weeks left in the year, right now I feel awfully far away from a downhill slide to January. 

I come to this post feeling frazzled and lackluster.  I need to be professionally astute.  I need to resume my regular workouts which have gone on hiatus the past couple of weeks.  I need to find my motivation to finish out the holiday season as I pledged to do – with spirit and pleasure and joy. 

And yet, I am pining for December 23rd, when we will drive to my in-laws’ house where I will curl up into a ball for three days.  I will fall asleep on sofas and my mother-in-law will drape me with blankets.  I will roll around on thick carpet with IEP and play with nieces and nephews and toys.  I will gab with my sisters-in-law for hours.  And I will shower only when absolutely necessary.    

But December 23rd is still more than a week away.  And in the interim I must purchase and wrap gifts.  I must defend a professional opinion to my superiors.  I must finish a book I started more than a month ago.  I must complete a few personal projects to which I’m committed.  And I must not let it all get me down. 

Last night I slogged through my workout.  My feet were heavy against the treadmill.  I collapsed from my planks after less than a minute.  My arm muscles twitched with each curl and each shoulder press.  And when it was over I felt both defeated and triumphant.  It wasn’t pretty, but it was done.  And in some strange way it energized me to tackle these things that hang over my head. 

I am eager for January.  I am eager for a fresh start.  For the burst of energy that follows two short weeks in the office.  For the adrenaline rush of a new list of resolutions.  For a year about which I have high hopes.

I am eager to get over this hump.

5 Responses to “Over the Hump”

  1. Cathy Says:

    Oh I can totally relate. I need to get back on the exercise bandwagon. I think it’ll do good for me mentally. I always feel good (well, mentally anyway) after working out, so I’m not sure why I don’t do it more.

    As for work, I just had a moment of satisfaction when talking with my boss and she finally understood and agreed with my perspective on something that’s been dragging me down at work. To have that support has really lifted my spirits at the office.

  2. BigLittleWolf Says:

    Sometimes slogging through is “just right” – the right term for the right amount of energy (when little energy remains) and an accurate assessment of getting through the days and nights to meet all the varied commitments.

    At this time of year, it’s hard not to be weary, even when good things are on the horizon.

    We’re with you on this one – hanging in and counting down the days.

  3. Gale Says:

    Cathy – Yes, workouts seem to do as much for me mentally as physically. I’m usually very consistent in getting 3 or 4 in each week, but lately I’ve let things get in the way. It felt good to “sweat it out” last night after work, even though I wasn’t initially in the mood. I’m going back tonight and am actually looking forward to it this time. Now I just need to channel that energy into the rest of my life!

    BLW – Yes, slogging can be a very apt description. Thankfully there are good things on the horizon. It’s those good things that help me muster the motivation to slog in the first place! :)

  4. Aidan Donnelley Rowley @ Ivy League Insecurities Says:

    As much as I adore this time of year (and I do), there is a little (or not-so-little) part of me that looks forward to January, to a fresh start, to a blank page. I am very impressed with your devotion to your workouts!

  5. Kathryn Says:

    I can relate. Somehow in the past it always seemed good enough to me just to have all my shopping and wrapping done before Christmas Eve, so as not to be one of the frenzied and frazzled shoppers picking through the retail remains just in the nick of time. But now that I have a child and a job that I hope to build a real professional life around it does not seem like enough to be squeezing so many holiday preparations into December. So my new pledge is from now on I will have all my Christmas shopping and wrapping finished before the Thanksgiving weekend. That way I can spend the weeks of December truly immersed in the celebration; the parties, the baking, the helping in the kitchen, the projects at work that need to be wrapped up, time curled up on the couch with a book…

    I feel confident this is a step in the zen direction. Spreading out the preparations rather than somehow thinking each year it won’t be so hard to do it all while still enjoying it all.

    Happy holidays and lots of joy to you and your family.